my beloved Amanda

My sister in law Amanda has started a blog about her own weight loss struggles and triumphs, it is called amandagetsthin.blogspot.com. Amanda, you are fabulous! I love you.

So I have a few errands to run and I'll write an update later.

Much love to you all, annabanana

Still in park...more or less

So I haven't been to tops in awhile, because of timing, it is going on when I really like to sleep. I know that is a poor excuse.

Joey and I each got a bicycle last week, I haven't ridden in about 10 years, and I cannot believe how out of shape I really am. I can maybe ride a half a mile. Gone are the days when I lived in Villa Park and we were only 2.5 miles from the prairie path, where I could ride for 10 miles without getting even the slightest bit winded. We don't have anyplace like that near here, so we just ride up and down our rode, which is up and down hill. Joey can't ride any further than I can, he says he can't breathe, I tell him to quit the smoking, and soon he'll be able to breathe, and then ride further. Everyday, we go a little further. Everyday we get a little better.

Joey complains that he is fat, I disagree, I tell him that he is just a little out of shape. But, I love him. He never says anything about my weight, and so many of the people I know, their husbands and boyfriends are forever putting them down, calling them "fat slobs" and worse. I don't know how I would handle it if Joey ever did that to me? He really treats me like a queen.

As for mine and Mom's camping trip, why did I choose the hottest weekend in October? We had a good time though, and we are planning another campout for November 16-18 on Mount Nebo, in case anyone else wants to join us, we have an extra tent. Just let me know, and make your own reservation, and if you are not much of a tent camper, they do have some fairly reasonable cabins.

On a sad note, this past Saturday we buried my great-aunt Poll (pronounced like doll), Dollie Ruth Williams McDonald. She was a phenomenal woman. Robert Miller performed the service, and did a fantastic job, probabily the first Christadelphian exhortation many there had ever heard. I cannot express my gratitude enough.

So, with the bike riding, I'm trying to kick start my self once again. Please pray for me.

My love to all, annabanana

foodies annonymous

For alcoholics that are trying to break the cycle of alcohol abuse, they are told to attend 90 meetings in 90 days, I think I need that for people addicted to food. Someplace that the scale is not as important as how you feel.

That is the only thing that I do not like about TOPS, no matter how many times I tried to politely explain that I did not want to discuss how my weight went. They just kept prying. Those of you that know me know that I am very private about some things. I am still very new at sharing about my weight, and my mental states regarding my weight.

Although, ask me any question that might be an embarassing topic for someone else and I am free with info depending on who is doing the asking.

I don't know what I need. I am taking my Mom camping this weekend at Crater of Diamonds. Lord willing, I'll be able to get back into the right mindset.

I am very much looking forward to getting away this weekend, if Mom will ever get her stuff done!!! That was sarcasm if you didn't catch that.

Anyway, I'm off to load the rest of her stuff in the car. Later

bored

haven't been walking, haven't been eating right, haven't been going to meetings. They are at 4:30 in the afternoon, and when you work nights that is the middle of your night. Just can't seem to get my butt back in gear.

Mom and I are going camping this weekend at Crater of Diamonds state park. Need a break.

HELP! Somebody kick my butt back into gear!!!!!!

update

I gained 1.75 lbs this week, but my mother-in-law says that she can see that I'm droping some weight, must be turning fat into muscle?!? I can't see it yet.

I'll post more later.

What day is it?

I missed the meeting last week, I didn't know it was Thursday until CSI came on and I asked Joe why would CSI be on on a Wednesday?!? It's Thursday. OOPs Well, that's what happens when you work nights, you never know what day it is.

It has been raining here and I haven't been able to walk, so now I'm just dancing in the living room. I love to go dancing and don't care what other people think, it's just not the right environment for me, because then, I want to drink, and the alcoholic in me can't handle that temptation.

To my beloved sis Amanda, I love you so much! I'm doing the program this week and it is going to be about the psychology of conditioning and positive reinforcement. Think Pavlov and his dogs, but make it work for dieting and working out?!?

Amanda, Fight the good fight, you are more than worth it. Mom says hello and she loves you.

My positive reinforcement is my bag of beans. One pound lost equals one pound of beans in the bag. Also for every ten pound loss, I get to treat myself to a fat quarter of fabric. Just find what non food treat works for you. Like a pedicure for one month of working out 5 days a week.

Anyway, it is now past my bedtime. I'll post again later in the week. Love to all.

I am tired

I'm tired of the republicans, tired of the democrats, tired of whatever Ross Pierot is?!? I am tired, I need rest.* Going from a stationary lifestyle to a sedentary lifestyle is hard work. Everyday is a battle to get up off my lazy butt. A battle, made even more difficult by that loud inner voice that keeps telling me "you're not worth it, sit down, shut up, and eat, then you will be happy."

Have you seen that commercial about the runner made of various horrors and stresses of the day? The further the runner goes, the more the horrors and stresses fall away until it is just a man left standing and taking a drink of the so call "fitness" water that is being advertized. I want to feel that way when I exercise, the further I go I want the horrors and stresses of my life to fall away, if only for a little while.

I think if you can find the right exercise for you then you immediatly start to feel that way. Exercise is personal, walking is not for everyone, running is not my obsession, I have yet to find MY exercise. The one method that is right for me. I like the walking, but the horrors and stresses don't fall away with it. So, I am on the search for MY exercise. I'll continue the walking and try others as well.

Starting with one that my back does not have to be involved in, it hurts.

I have found a, I'm guessing, new product. I might have been ignoring it. Anyway, Kraft has joined with the South Beach Diet guru to make lunchable type items. Each package makes two wraps, there are like 5 different types, they each have a minimum 14 grams of fiber, and are around 220 calories. I like the deli ham and turkey, which comes complete with two wheat tortillas about 5 inches, 4 slices each ham and turkey, about two ounces shredded cheddar, grey poupon mustard, and sugar free jello. I usually give the jello to someone else or throw it away, because I do not like aspartame (it causes alzheimers). That, a bottle of water, and some fresh carrots make a pretty good lunch. A benefit to all that fiber is that it makes you feel full longer.

Marria, thank you for your e-mail, you are a blessing to me. I hope you and Kim have a really good visit, give her my love.

It is now past my bedtime, hope everyone has a blessed day, g'night.




*Thanks Marc, from one of your exhortations.