update

I gained 1.75 lbs this week, but my mother-in-law says that she can see that I'm droping some weight, must be turning fat into muscle?!? I can't see it yet.

I'll post more later.

What day is it?

I missed the meeting last week, I didn't know it was Thursday until CSI came on and I asked Joe why would CSI be on on a Wednesday?!? It's Thursday. OOPs Well, that's what happens when you work nights, you never know what day it is.

It has been raining here and I haven't been able to walk, so now I'm just dancing in the living room. I love to go dancing and don't care what other people think, it's just not the right environment for me, because then, I want to drink, and the alcoholic in me can't handle that temptation.

To my beloved sis Amanda, I love you so much! I'm doing the program this week and it is going to be about the psychology of conditioning and positive reinforcement. Think Pavlov and his dogs, but make it work for dieting and working out?!?

Amanda, Fight the good fight, you are more than worth it. Mom says hello and she loves you.

My positive reinforcement is my bag of beans. One pound lost equals one pound of beans in the bag. Also for every ten pound loss, I get to treat myself to a fat quarter of fabric. Just find what non food treat works for you. Like a pedicure for one month of working out 5 days a week.

Anyway, it is now past my bedtime. I'll post again later in the week. Love to all.

I am tired

I'm tired of the republicans, tired of the democrats, tired of whatever Ross Pierot is?!? I am tired, I need rest.* Going from a stationary lifestyle to a sedentary lifestyle is hard work. Everyday is a battle to get up off my lazy butt. A battle, made even more difficult by that loud inner voice that keeps telling me "you're not worth it, sit down, shut up, and eat, then you will be happy."

Have you seen that commercial about the runner made of various horrors and stresses of the day? The further the runner goes, the more the horrors and stresses fall away until it is just a man left standing and taking a drink of the so call "fitness" water that is being advertized. I want to feel that way when I exercise, the further I go I want the horrors and stresses of my life to fall away, if only for a little while.

I think if you can find the right exercise for you then you immediatly start to feel that way. Exercise is personal, walking is not for everyone, running is not my obsession, I have yet to find MY exercise. The one method that is right for me. I like the walking, but the horrors and stresses don't fall away with it. So, I am on the search for MY exercise. I'll continue the walking and try others as well.

Starting with one that my back does not have to be involved in, it hurts.

I have found a, I'm guessing, new product. I might have been ignoring it. Anyway, Kraft has joined with the South Beach Diet guru to make lunchable type items. Each package makes two wraps, there are like 5 different types, they each have a minimum 14 grams of fiber, and are around 220 calories. I like the deli ham and turkey, which comes complete with two wheat tortillas about 5 inches, 4 slices each ham and turkey, about two ounces shredded cheddar, grey poupon mustard, and sugar free jello. I usually give the jello to someone else or throw it away, because I do not like aspartame (it causes alzheimers). That, a bottle of water, and some fresh carrots make a pretty good lunch. A benefit to all that fiber is that it makes you feel full longer.

Marria, thank you for your e-mail, you are a blessing to me. I hope you and Kim have a really good visit, give her my love.

It is now past my bedtime, hope everyone has a blessed day, g'night.




*Thanks Marc, from one of your exhortations.